"Do you eat rice?"
"Yes."
Soo-hyuk said when he saw his mother, who was in trouble because she did a lot of bad work. She had already been living with her son in a Daldongne that had not been redeveloped for more than 20 years.
"Until when do I have to live like this?"
Soo-hyuk's eyes reddened as he saw his mother with a bent waist.
His father died in an accident 10 years ago while working hard.
He was raising his son alone without her.
"I will go."
Today Soo-hyuk took his bag and left the house. Her mother thinks Soo-hyuk is going to study for a job, but in reality she was sitting at a nearby cafe to spend time.
"Ameri...."
"I'll give you a glass of Americano."
When Soo-hyuk, who arrived at the cafe after leaving the house, tried to order coffee, the clerk who already knew Soo-hyuk, who always ordered the same menu at the same time, stopped talking and received an order for coffee.
Soo-hyuk He spoke softly, as if he could hear it in a crawling voice. He has an extremely introverted personality, so he couldn't even make eye contact with the clerk when ordering. When the coffee I ordered came out.
She was idly fiddling with her cell phone and checked her watch.
'When will I go home?'
As if carrying all the anguish of the world, with a wrinkled forehead, she sat and looked at her phone.
Who is he, who is looking at his cell phone only in his seat with wrinkles on his forehead as if carrying all the agony of the world?
His name Kang Soo-hyuk, thirty-five years old, and all of his acquaintances are having fun getting a job and getting married, but he has already lived without hope for a long time. It's not that Soohyuk didn't make an effort.
Soo-hyuk, who had been severely bullied in the past, failed to adapt to school and eventually dropped out of high school, and entered college with difficulty with the qualification exam. Even though he studied hard, he didn't have the ability to study.
I barely entered a local university without and managed to graduate after many twists and turns.
"It's kind of annoying, you know. It makes me feel bad when I'm next to you."
"Right, people look gloomy". Have you ever seen me talk?"
"I thought you were a bum, but when I saw you at the presentation time, you seemed to know how to speak.""
Soo-hyuk, who did not know how to approach him due to the wounds he received as a person, found it difficult to make friends who could be open-minded throughout college. I think it was because my face was full of shade due to the deep depressing emotions.
However, he could easily see people who insulted him for no reason no matter which group he went to.
"Why am I so unlucky?" I just need a friend who knows how I feel.'
Soo-hyuk, who spent his depressing college life without a close friend, decided to become a public official with the intention of having a stable job.
"I'm going to take a civil service exam.""
"Okay, that's a good idea." I'll help you as much as I can."
Soo-hyuk talked to his mother, who was suffering in difficult circumstances, about preparing for a civil servant, and she readily promised to apply.
Soo-hyuk sat in front of the monitor and ordered, and checked the test results. I studied harder than anyone else, but unfortunately, the only thing that returned to him was the result of failure. After that, I applied regardless of private or public companies.
“Soo-hyuk, people can fail in life, so don’t give up and work hard.”
“Yes, don’t worry." He put in the application as soon as he could. But unfortunately, no company reached out to him.
"I'm sorry, but it seems difficult to work with him."
"Yes..."
Soo-hyuk, who was rejected by all the companies he applied for, also applied to small businesses in the neighborhood. Fortunately, he passed the documents and was given the opportunity to attend an interview, but it was very difficult for Soo-hyuk, who has a severely withdrawn personality, to get an interview.
Ha, you can't do this.I have to do something.'
Soo-hyuk, who had difficulty expecting his mother's support due to continued failures, began to earn enough money to barely live by working part-time as a daily worker who did not need a face-to-face job.
"Hey, hurry up. Don't you want to do this?""
"Why is he so slow?""
Soo-hyuk was often scolded even at his barely earned job. What I did was to pack the box all day, but I was likely to be criticized by people because my body was sluggish.
"Hey, look at him, he has a body like that, can he do it quickly?"
Soo-hyuk, who has a hairy head and a body that is too heavy to be called obese, was wiping sweat and collecting the box.
"Hey, it's okay, so stop. "
"Work as much as rat poop and get the money regularly."
The man continued to grumble while giving Soo-hyuk a salary.
"You get cursed at no matter what you do, why can't I do anything well?"'
The constant bullying and criticism from those around him took away even the enthusiasm for the remaining efforts from Soo-hyuk, who had already had a depressed personality. When Soo-hyuk realized that he had no experience of achieving anything no matter how hard he tried in life, he had no energy left to do anything productive. What he could do was to pass the time by going to a cafe to study.
'Hey, what are you doing today?'
Soo-hyuk, who spends time bored at the cafe, was to search his situation on a smartphone.
There must be something. If that's not the case, there's no way my life won't go this way.
What he usually searches for is "when bad luck hits life," "when life hits the bottom." They were search terms with dark tendencies.
"Whoa, is there a chance for me, too?"
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